My Dark Queen

skin dark brown
scars here cuts there
a color so deeply rooted
in that of our ancestor

she's African.
born and raised here
but the rich color of
her skin tells her
story of let nite tears
and New York fears
where she's from she can not
hide
it's like her shadow
its by her side
skin so rich in culture
the history books couldn't
understand
the shame, the hurt, the pain
her parents had to with-stand
but her walk is clean her talk is mean
some call her dark queen
but yet no understands the weight of those words
trying to escape it all like jaybirds
and ya thought being free wouldn't take long
don't gett it twisted the lil misses...yea she strong..

heart & mind reach reality

but my heart wasn't ready to let go of the past

but he need my love

right now;

right quick;

right fast

And all i could give him were my wordz

with very lil emotions

me thinking all he wanted & needed

from me is, was, & could only be relations

dry

quick

cold-hearted

with nothing but an empty condom rap

but there's more to his story than

the pen could write

the average Joe he's not

compassion,

love,

intelligence

is what he got

so how could i not

-- want to be in his sight

wanting him to want me in his space

where face meets face

hands interlock & confusion sets in

hearts & mind are not aligned

and all this he has done

opening up to him in ways impossible

5 years later so many miles & anythings possible

this is new to me he's loving me in his entirety

dreaming of the day where my space is his space

& we're walking at the same pace

& the next chapter in our book of reality

begins with him and I

and all i can do is sit back and sigh

thank God for helping me

find him before i die....

7:50 am true happiness begins with you

each day with you brings

forth a new found joy

that i don't wanna let go

you relaxed presence

seems to mellow--

me out..

your like the bullet to my gun

yes ammo

u give me shivers

your words make me quiver

got me touching you but feeling me

wanting to be lost in you completely

gone in the twist of your true emotion

and all i can do is show my dedication

to the relation-ship..

so i will be the employee of the year

taking on the task of loving you with cheer

nuffin less then happy faces

and the guaranty of a million kisses..

i would never leave you loney

because you are my true happiness

in the mist of agony

emotions --of-- you

scared of this feeling--

feeling you

wanting you

needing you.

And I've heard it all before

but in a different way

there's emotion behind your words.

the care in your voice

and i want nuffin more

but to embrace every word of yearning call

screaming, yelling, talking

and my heart cant contain it's self

joy, glee, glad

and I'm so happy its with you.

with this new found happiness i cant argue.

but my mind is strong

but my heart cant be wrong.

and where have you been all my life.

dealing with these boys most of them lowlifes.

so much hurt

to much pain

and nuffin but self-hatred to gain.

but all along you where right there in my grasp.

now you got me in your clasp

wanting me to stay with you.

me wanting to be there with you.

5 years later and this is so bazaar

hoping ya embrace doesn't leave another scare

and i cant help but to wonder what your intentions are.

open ending feeling

I want to Leaving u in awe,
Of how a good woman should treat you,
Wanting nuffin but to give u
My space time And love.
Realizing your inner is not perfect
But Ur being is perfection
So many years and we got
So much in common
…
Your concerned about my inner
Most being and it means more
To me than words ken explain
And you are more than just
A thought of true emotions
Got my mind running wild cause all kind of commotions
…
Who could have known that the boy next door
Would arouse my intellectual mind
In ways that would make anyone
Quiver. You excite me with stimulating
Shivers of meaningful thoughts that flow
Through your mind. Oh my, what have we
Begun. You got me so overwhelmed with
The thought of u and I
Like it…yes I like it
…
The way Ur voice
Appeases every negative wanting only a positive
Reaction in Ur actions. Wanting to make u
Scream jump and dance in the excitement of us
Never lust but true feelings and trust. A man
Whom I’ve known forever and never thought
To tell him “ I like you” in that instant being shy
With His reply I like you to.
…
And the only thing stopping
Us are distance and time. Kuz by now u wuda been mine
Boy you hella fine. 5’8 thinking straight got so much going on
To which he can relate. And to think this feeling was so unreal
But God has his way of showing us the deal. Giving us precious
Gifts to which we can cherish.
Leaving me with a smile so girlish
Like a hand in glove we fit
And baby I love it.

speak

-----

i watched your mouth move

as i engage in your speech

staring in amazement

as you speak words

so smooth and rich

my soul can't comprehend this

and I'm lost but I'm focused all in one

and i don't know wat you've begun

words meaning one thing coming out as another

and with each syllable my heart pulsates

your word speak truth in which i can relate

they are a light hidden in a dark place.

and i cant help but to watch you speak

painting pictures as you teach

letting us know that meanings change

even tho words stay the same.

blind,lost,&twisted

ears shut minds closed
walkin on a road alone
pitch black hands covering
eyes but you claim to know your
way. but you can't see , ur blind.
reading braille and still the wisdom cant
reach ur mind. your lost. road map in a
an unknown laugage. searching rite
lookin left and still u claim to know ur way
thinking that the words of others cant help u
you got it twisted. thinkin u know it all
and when ur lost you have no one to call
depend on ur self to give u the answers on things
you dont know. child how are u expecting to grown
put ur pride aside. open ur ears and mind
uncover ur eyes so u wont be blind.
learn the unknown laugage of man
so your map of life may come in hand.
allow otheres to show u the way
ur just a child so take the wisdom that comes
you hear from day to day.
in other words young one throw ur
ignorence away....