7:50 am true happiness begins with you

each day with you brings

forth a new found joy

that i don't wanna let go

you relaxed presence

seems to mellow--

me out..

your like the bullet to my gun

yes ammo

u give me shivers

your words make me quiver

got me touching you but feeling me

wanting to be lost in you completely

gone in the twist of your true emotion

and all i can do is show my dedication

to the relation-ship..

so i will be the employee of the year

taking on the task of loving you with cheer

nuffin less then happy faces

and the guaranty of a million kisses..

i would never leave you loney

because you are my true happiness

in the mist of agony

emotions --of-- you

scared of this feeling--

feeling you

wanting you

needing you.

And I've heard it all before

but in a different way

there's emotion behind your words.

the care in your voice

and i want nuffin more

but to embrace every word of yearning call

screaming, yelling, talking

and my heart cant contain it's self

joy, glee, glad

and I'm so happy its with you.

with this new found happiness i cant argue.

but my mind is strong

but my heart cant be wrong.

and where have you been all my life.

dealing with these boys most of them lowlifes.

so much hurt

to much pain

and nuffin but self-hatred to gain.

but all along you where right there in my grasp.

now you got me in your clasp

wanting me to stay with you.

me wanting to be there with you.

5 years later and this is so bazaar

hoping ya embrace doesn't leave another scare

and i cant help but to wonder what your intentions are.

open ending feeling

I want to Leaving u in awe,
Of how a good woman should treat you,
Wanting nuffin but to give u
My space time And love.
Realizing your inner is not perfect
But Ur being is perfection
So many years and we got
So much in common
…
Your concerned about my inner
Most being and it means more
To me than words ken explain
And you are more than just
A thought of true emotions
Got my mind running wild cause all kind of commotions
…
Who could have known that the boy next door
Would arouse my intellectual mind
In ways that would make anyone
Quiver. You excite me with stimulating
Shivers of meaningful thoughts that flow
Through your mind. Oh my, what have we
Begun. You got me so overwhelmed with
The thought of u and I
Like it…yes I like it
…
The way Ur voice
Appeases every negative wanting only a positive
Reaction in Ur actions. Wanting to make u
Scream jump and dance in the excitement of us
Never lust but true feelings and trust. A man
Whom I’ve known forever and never thought
To tell him “ I like you” in that instant being shy
With His reply I like you to.
…
And the only thing stopping
Us are distance and time. Kuz by now u wuda been mine
Boy you hella fine. 5’8 thinking straight got so much going on
To which he can relate. And to think this feeling was so unreal
But God has his way of showing us the deal. Giving us precious
Gifts to which we can cherish.
Leaving me with a smile so girlish
Like a hand in glove we fit
And baby I love it.

speak

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i watched your mouth move

as i engage in your speech

staring in amazement

as you speak words

so smooth and rich

my soul can't comprehend this

and I'm lost but I'm focused all in one

and i don't know wat you've begun

words meaning one thing coming out as another

and with each syllable my heart pulsates

your word speak truth in which i can relate

they are a light hidden in a dark place.

and i cant help but to watch you speak

painting pictures as you teach

letting us know that meanings change

even tho words stay the same.

blind,lost,&twisted

ears shut minds closed
walkin on a road alone
pitch black hands covering
eyes but you claim to know your
way. but you can't see , ur blind.
reading braille and still the wisdom cant
reach ur mind. your lost. road map in a
an unknown laugage. searching rite
lookin left and still u claim to know ur way
thinking that the words of others cant help u
you got it twisted. thinkin u know it all
and when ur lost you have no one to call
depend on ur self to give u the answers on things
you dont know. child how are u expecting to grown
put ur pride aside. open ur ears and mind
uncover ur eyes so u wont be blind.
learn the unknown laugage of man
so your map of life may come in hand.
allow otheres to show u the way
ur just a child so take the wisdom that comes
you hear from day to day.
in other words young one throw ur
ignorence away....

the boy next door (^_^)

So im letting go of my past
Opening up to the newness Of you,
and I want nothing more But to explore
this boy,
who has become a man,
That I once knew.
I wanna be trapped in your grip of honesty.
Lost in hold of your safety
Consumed with your security
Examining your mental,
Loving ya psychical
And wanting to heal ya emotional.
Who wudaKnew that the boy nest door
Wud be the man I wanna give my all.
Got me hoping
That you U’ll catch me before I fall.
Prayin that this is real
Prayin that my action help u feel what I feel
Boy you so captivating.
Never thought I wud be saying
This to you man
feeling this for you man
thinking this of u man.
And this is so much more than a childhood crush
Baby you give me and revitalizing rush
I jus wanna Touch, Feel, kiss, love
Every inch of your soul
I wanna be the bullet to ya gun
Yes a pistole
So watch me as I heal u with
Some T.L.C
Don’t worry babe all ya pain will son to be history.

poetry

There are words that consume my mind
Forcing me to push a pen to a pad.
These words have been with me since the womb.
And as I grow the thoughts bloom
And I become something I never thought I could be.
Leaving others hungry…
For the words that lie within my mind.
Causing the blind…to find
a way to open there eyes
And allowing dead dreams to arise from their resting place.
So that they may embrace
The dreams of tomorrow
Taking my future out of the ghetto.
Placing me in front of a rich mans face.
So that I can buy my own space.
And follow the aspirations that I have been imbedded in my dream
To come true…
And this all started from the words that flows through my bloodstream.
The words that invade my mind.
Forcing me to realize that I an more than just a little young woman
I am all the excellent things you can envision…plus I’m human.
Which means I feel the same way u feel
Maybe not in the same light but it’s real..
I cry tears of miserable thoughts that are invisible to the naked eye
Which I can’t seem to avoid even though I try…
I smile when it hurts too much to bleed tears.
Because u wouldn’t understand my fears.
Oh maybe u can but I could never open u that much
My heart you could never touch.
For it is broken and tattered
Worn and scattered…
And the word that it possesses is the only thing that matters.
It’s the continuous force of the pen that keeps me going..
Never knowing…what I will come up with next
But hoping that my words will bring forth a new meaning with its context.
This is what makes me a poet…
So hold this…and check it… oh and uh you gotta respect it
I’m the epitome of poetry.
I’m something like floetry.
I don’t think you hearing me.
See my words flow deep
Making u think…causing u to weep
Allowing u to open up your beautiful eyes
And see that when the sun comes up it’s more than just a sunrise.

you

You
Apart of my past
Hushed in to a part of my
Memory where things usually
Don’t last. But your persona is
Embedded into me and I cant
Break free from old memories
And new thoughts of you and I
How did this transpire from old
Friends in a huge crush. Its your
Deep intellectual words that flows
Through my head. The way your soul
Is full of soul. It’s the beat of your words
The rhyme of your tongue. The simple things
You say. The sweet tenderness of your utterance
That drives me insane. You are the music in my ears
The ink in my pen and the tempo on my keyboard.
The way you make me yearn for your hugs
And sweet nothings that are oh so full of
Sum things. Babii it’s you. You are poetry

He

He
Is my erotic.
Dominating my soul
With his benevolence
For me. And his sexual
Craving to be in
That place of intimacy.
The sweet kisses he
Plants on the physical
Of me and all I can
Do is gasp for air
Yes air inhaling the mixed
Scent him I and we. And it
Feels oh so good to be in his arms
Of captivating Adulation. But
In the distance all you could hear
Is, Hearts beating Chest pumping
Yes pumping fast then faster.
Feeling love not Lust and loving
Every moment of His embrace. While
He runs his fingers through my hair
Grabbing here stroking there. And
Suddenly im lost in his aspiration to be
With me. Yes me and in that moment everything
In the world seems to stop and the groans
And moans of him and I is all I hear.
And nuffin matters but I and he.
So all I can say is I love you babii I love you!!